Get Over The Past

As high as I wanna be

nobody save me

I left the chute in the plane

because I know I’m guilty

tired of refills I take it straight

out the bottle

I’m sorry helpline but I tried to call you

it’s so fucked up when you’re fucked up

what can I tell you?

until you know what it feels like to wanna disappear

and crying in the night for someone to save you

these words will mean nothing except

a reason for you to feel sorry, and

you know it’s true

drowning under people

you gasp for air

they don’t move yellling

Hey Buddy I’m walking here!

not even the landlord cares

your family’s fed up

wishing you weren’t always there

complaining about being sad

cuz you don’t feel you have a purpose here

the world is so big there must be

someone who feels this out there

Believe in Yourself

So afraid of my own voice

I speak behind another face

I can’t even recognize the words they’re from outerspace

hiding behind everyone I love

listening to myself stay quiet

not risking my love

because I want everybody to love me

but I know that’s useless

everybody sees me differently

but I still want to make a mark

delusions of grandeur

desires of greatness

the road is long and cold

I hear me and myself thinking

somebody save us

I want them to know that I want the world

that I won’t settle for anything less

than everything

why do I need them to believe me?

trapped thinking about my effects on others

emotional slavery

I put 2pac on replay

somebody help me

I’m reminded of Gambino’s inspiration

you just gotta follow your voice no matter what you’re facing

I feel all the fear and all the self doubt

before I step onto the stage and let it all out

 

but I’m still here

and never took that step yet

the closest I’ve been is at the poetry slam

and even then I did it once and left them

I never even entered the competition

but this one dude came up to give me props

I guess I completed my mission