Vagabond Dreams

Like a petal in the wind my mind flutters

from one thought to another

struggling to hold on to a mirage for support

I fall and fall

I don’t know how God lives on a cloud

Prayers can’t hold me up

the cup is set before me but I don’t want to drink it

yet I always do

half empty or overflowing

it’s not until I awake again that I regret my decision

maybe if I could erase my memories I wouldn’t suffer

ignorance is bliss

I don’t know

ignorance is, and can life can be lived without it

happiness and suffering don’t have to go hand in hand

our lives don’t have to be any way

we don’t have to be anything at all

but still we push

and I push myself

pushing for some distant point of light that I will finally enter and my weight will be taken away

where sleepiness will never come

and prayers won’t exist

and neither will I

 

Doing It Wrong Remix

when a good thing goes bad
it’s just what was suppposed to happen
like when you said I’d never be anything
and I secretly started rappin
it went from missed calls to no more texts
and then the only time you came over was for sex
and then you never came
you said you hated umbrellas you don’t wanna get wet
and then I saw you and told you I left you a voicemail
you said you saw it but I know you didn’t even check
and then I saw you with him and you saw me but didn’t even stress
you turned away and looked at him and he gave a smile like he was blessed
why even tell me you were thinking about it when your mind was made
I wouldn’t have spent all this time thinking of all the right things to say
and that chance to fly down to toronto I would have took it
I wouldn’t have stayed